Day 1
Al Khankah - Qalyubia - Egypt
This is the first day of my 40-day journey to the 30s. I was obsessed with the idea of turning 30 since last year. I tried to fulfill everything I wanted to do in my life in those few months. I carried the huge burden of being so close to turning 30. I can’t deny that I did a good job in trying to re-engage myself in MA studies again, more experiences in work, music, covering events, and activities.
I spent the past few months trying to have a more balanced and productive time but I failed so many times. But, I am determined to make this journey more successful. I want to turn all this negativity inside my veins into a better mood. To be honest. To speak up, to speak now. I want to calm all the storms inside me. I want to record this and leave it behind, it may help someone else. This is my motive for writing in the first place, leave memory and mark.
Day 1 - Sunday - October 27, 2024 - El Khanka, Qalyubia, Egypt
I struggled a lot to sleep. Insomnia and anxiety hit my brain. I tried a lot of things to ease myself but failed. All I could do was a cup of warm green tea with mint. I stood near by my room’s window, hoping this cold breeze help me. My clouds of thinking gathered more and more, two and two. I started to talk to myself, talk to them, hear them, but never judge them. I understand that I am still suffering from the shades of death anxiety ghosts that I faced two years ago. I know that the best solution for this is to try to focus on now, the moment we live in without hearing the echoes of the past or the concerns of the future. It was 3 am (Cairo time) and still struggled. I did some stupid thing which is watching reels. It was enjoyable. But, it cost me a lot of time. I need to admit that my background in a lot of girly stuff is somehow poor, so, I have been focusing more on such stuff in the past few weeks. So, like these videos about makeup and ASMR stuff.
4 am, I decided to check TNA Impact Bound for Glory to watch The Hardys match and watch the moment of their victory live. It was cool. However, the worst thing in the match was The Hardys themselves.
7 am: I made breakfast for my family and tried to focus on such warm morning family time rather than slipping more into overthinking. Then, I decided to have a long workout time. Great, physical activity helped me a lot to sleep. But, I set my alarm to 1 pm to control the day. I wrote my to-do list for the day. Spent from 1: 30 pm to 3 pm in breakfast, checking fashion news, and listening to a good podcast about how to prepare yourself for 2025. A thing we all need. I can’t deny that I was relaxed. Next, had these refreshing herbs and water and lemon, before unplugging all my devices and studying for 1 hour and a half. It was productive. From 5 pm to 7, I made it for daily housework tasks: laundry, cooking, washing dishes, etc.
I cooked for myself a healthy meal to make my diet more restricted. Next, I started my second studying session, before moving to my family time.
At 12 am, I recalled Aquarius and its stars during my time on the balcony by the sunset. I was engaged to the nature. I felt the colors of the sky were bright, and the air was fresh and calm. It was the first time in my life to observe how the sun slides into the sunset and hides in the horizon.
So, I decided to kick off the blog and my comeback with VIC’s “The Age of Aquarius.” I am satisfied with the review. I felt the energy of the long-lost lost Dark-Knight.
At 2 am: the same mistake, didn’t sleep early, but did my night skincare routine. Did Also some journaling, before writing this blog post.
I am leaving below, the playlists I listened to and the podcast I mentioned, as well as the blog post I wrote about the album.
Music:
Pre-Bed
The start of the day:
Studying:
Podcasts:
Articles I really liked: this one about winter makeup from Chanel
Photos:
Rate of the day: 9/10
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